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12 July

What a vagina-aching day! Had to wake up at 6.00.a.m just to reach cotton-on Lot 1 at 7.30pm for a store meeting. And boy did my jaw dropped when the meeting commence ,  COTTON – ON LOT 1 RECEIVED AN EFFING ZERO FOR CUSTOMER SERVICE. They actually hired mystery shoppers to spy us during work , jerks! I know i had been mean to customers but i have been very helpful .

Then had to rush to band for the big shift. Think i hurt my spine but it’s fine now .Was packing all my welfare stuff  and yes big thanks to Joseph,Cindy,Ming Tjun,Michelle Sim,Peiqi and Matin for helping ! welfare cupboard has keys now!

That was how messy it was.

Joseph helping me with the ties.

After evacuating from the band room , all of us got into a crazy rampage and started smashing the wall especially Baboo and Ming Tjun HAHA!

Our work.Smashing chairs into the walls.

We will miss this wall .

Ming Tjun’s red eyes.

Headed off with the rest of the elites to suntec to watch FEEEE’s Cheerleading performance , GO LEGACY (minus the whore) .Did i mention we found a grasshopper/locust/cricket  whatever it was i swear it was the length of my middle finger and it comes in pikachu colour.

Fee in the middle holding up a girl.

” We love white!”

With Timothy, president of NYP band .

After the performance, we went shopping.

” Michelle Sim! get the black heels and i swear you were gorgeous with that cotton on tank top and skirt, but the dress is cute too , get them! “

Had dinner at Xin Wang Hong Kong cafe, THANKS YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE UNGLAM SHOTS HAHA

stupid me sat in the middle and everyone started tickling me and Michelle goes busy ticking away on the camera.

SOME UNGLAM SHOTS

PEIQI keep tickling me and Joseph happily gave me thigh/thai squeeze then Ming Tjun join in then Cindy join in  so itchy and unbearable , had me screaming in the cafe haha

While eating we made friends with a waiter and a waitress . The waiter turned out to be my friend’s brother’s classmate. His name is Amos and the girl we did not ask i think .Anyway the waitress was like being bullied by this customer that got overactive when she splashed some water on his wife. And he went like” I WANNA SEE YOUR MANAGER” All of us saw it, it wasn’t the waitress fault, it was nobody’s fault. In fact i would blame it on the interiorscape of the cafe, so squeezy , it was an accident waiting to happen . The water wasn’t even hot, the water wasn’t even coloured drink / sweet drink . We could tell the waitress was on the verge of crying, Elites had to do what we had to do .

The waiter, Amos

On a side note, today was the first time i ever tried mangosteen and i’m lovin’ it .

I think my brother is at chalet, and i kinda miss him because there is no 1 to irritate now!

 I MISS YOU JEANETTE
I MISS YOU LATIFF
I MISS YOU DON
I MISS YOU SUSILA BAMBANG
IMISS YOU LULU JAZREEL
I MISS YOU FEEEEEEEEE
I MISS YOU QARIANA
I MISS YOU MATIN
I MISS YOU dinosaur.

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TRUST ME,I’M A LIAR

had a long conversation with someone today and it was all about not telling the truth. It wasn’t the kind of blatant lying that we all know about. It was more about omission. You know, just not saying something, keeping it secret until it had to be said. Not telling to avoid confrontation. Not telling to save the person the pain of knowing. Not telling to avoid shame.

“He does it all the time and it pisses me off!“, she said.

“It’s not like he’s really lying, he just doesn’t tell me things until he has to or until I find out some other way.”, she said.

“I know why he does it because I do it too. I have done it in the past.”, she said.

I think she was telling the truth about an impossible situation. I also think she was finally noticing that not saying something is the same thing as not telling the truth. It’s just easier than outright lying because when someone doesn’t say something you have no signals to alert you. If you ask someone a point blank question and they are being dishonest there are many ways you can tell if they are bullshitting you.

Avoiding eye contact

Distracting gestures

Going stone faced

Turning away

Facial expression and body language are not in sync

Unnatural smile

Delayed response or answer to the question

Putting space or objects between you

Answering a question with a question

Mumbling an answer

Evading the question

Repeating the question to you

Enunciates their words

Deflecting the question with humor or sarcasm

Being relieved when the conversation changes to another subject. Honest people will defend themselves when they are being accused of lying.

At the same time I think we have all told lies and been lied to, some of us more than others. It seems we even have unwritten rules about lying. You have your little-white-lie, like calling in sick to work when you aren’t sick. We have all lied to our parents and teachers and friends and lovers. I think we all learned how to lie a long time ago and in that learning we were socialized to believe that it is okay, but is it? Where do you draw the line? When do you stop it? I know people in their 40’s who still lie to their parents. Is constant lying a sign of immaturity? If you asked me I would have to say yes!

I have used lying a lot in my life and because of this I can usually tell when someone is lying to me and often I have rationalized their lies because I know why they are doing it, but that doesn’t make it acceptable to me anymore. I have come to a place in my life where I want to tell the truth and it is not easy. Telling someone I would rather not attend a party because I don’t feel like going is a lot harder than telling them I have other plans. Telling someone they hurt my feelings when they said such and such is a lot harder than sucking it up and not saying anything, (omission), but it frees me up to forgive them instead of resenting them forever and telling someone when they withhold the truth it hurts me more than if they didn’t is harder than calling them a liar, but it is honest. I think the bottom line here is that it goes to how much you can trust someone and of course how much they can trust you. My friends know I will tell them the truth even if it hurts, I expect the same from them. Where do you stand on this issue?

Do you think that any lies are acceptable? If you knew your relationships were fraught with lies, even little-white-lies what would you do? If you knew someone in your life lied to everyone around them would you think they were being honest with you?

The truth doesn’t hurt.

You know, i think we’ve all hurt of the phrase ‘the truth hurts’ and i think that’s such a negative saying and it actually discourages people from looking at the truth and  gives them an excuse not to look at the truth. Uh.. and i really wanna dispel that saying … … the truth doesn’t hurt ,people. The truth feels really good , really really good. Denial hurts, okay.. it’s the denial that hurts you . If you listen to truth all along ,whenever something happens you can go ” UH I KNEW THAT.” but when you know something and you keep pushing it back and you deny it and deny it and deny it and when it eventually comes out, it kicks you in the ass, because you were ignoring the truth , so as long as you listen to the truth the whole time , its all in your side . Okay so that saying ” the truth hurts”, thats not true.  Know that, it’s the denial that hurts you , truth heals. Denial  hurts.Okay? i mean , think of it in a literal sense ,say you have a … … cold or something , you just keep denying it and denying it and you don’t go to the doctor  , but as soon as you admit it to yourself you will go get help from it . The truth .. . it’s on your side it’s really on your side, and if truth did hurt you, IT DID NOT MEAN TO! The truth is your friend  , so um, don’t say that the truth hurts , the truth loves you okay? an the truth is my guiding light , is my saviour ,is a blanket for me and a pillow, it doesn’t hurt , it’s very soft and warm . So , just know that the truth doesn’t hurt , it feels really good, okay? So anytime you hear anyone say ” THE TRUTH HURTS”  smack ‘em on the forehead and say ” NO silly, it is denial that hurts.truth heals. “

PICTURES OF US AT ‘PETALS’
Petals is this really beautiful place at Lim Chu Kang where rich people or celebs prefer to hang out or host events such as weddings and such or even filming.

Tasting Cactus jelly

The villa where celebs would stay during thier visit.

THERE IS STORE MEETING TMR AT 7.30 AM . PROLLY ALL THE CRAPS ABOUT CUSTOMER SERVICE AGAIN .An i have to be in the clubhouse by 8.30 to take charge of the welfare side. Why does my schedule always clash .

I MISS YOU DINOSAUR!

Met up with Hilda, Only God knows how much i miss her! love you baby! haahahaha Went shopping and i got a shirt from topman , so effing cute! its like best friend tee in patrick and sponge bob, i got the patrick 1, FAUZI’S GETTING THE SPONGE BOB 1 YAY.

AND I BOUGHT A POLKA DOT SHIRT ALSO FROM TOPMAN , SO THAT I CAN SHOW IT TO CINDY HAHAHAH
Cindy touched my crotch today ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Was camwhoring  while waiting for our lecturer with Wani at blk 53 because we found this really cool concave mirror. 

HILDA !!

ON A SIDE NOTE, IM SELLING THIS SHIRT, THE SEDUCTION SHIRT, TEXT ME. 96259435

i will update tomorrow. Work was such a chore.

Jeanette’s remedy

Yes , im taking a dosage of Jeanette’s remedy . What am i going through? Mid-life crisis perhaps. Well God is fair, for someone who has fun laughing and screaming everyday, prolly God hasten Mid-life crisis for me. Yes yes, God is really fair, For my wonderful nose, God gave me elfy ears, for double eye-lids God gave me small eyes.God gave me a good height, on account that my spine is crooked, God gave me Good physiques on account that i do not bother to maintain and tone it. God is fair, i should stop contemplating, get over it.Get over it seriously. GET OVER IT.

Perhaps in others’ eyes you are perfect, but deep down i know, you’re a skank that keeps your trevvy visitation a secret.

I dropped my  phone into a toilet bowl today. Everything will sound stupid from here on . Went inside a cubicle and saw what i thought was a cockroach but turned out to be some dark puddle of liquid then jumped a little and threw my hands up and dropped my phone in . Imagine my horror when i had to wash my already wet phone. Strange things occur after that … … when i press 9, 3 comes out, when i press 2,5 comes out, and the flash on the camera wouldn’t switch off and snapped a few pictures by itself and started calling people for no reason and sent messages to the wrong people! Then Don, Jeanette, Cindy and i accompanied Baboo to life saving class and i swear, Lisa is cute.

Awwww… Don told me my ex-girlfriend which is coincidently Don’s classmate is now dating a 28 year old man ! haha how cute.

WORK WAS AWEESOMEE TTODAY .
Sid was incharge, i love it when she’s incharge because Sid is just like me. Bursting out into laughter in the middle of the store, who cares about what customer thinks. WELCOME TO LOT 1 COTTON ON . The best part is that, i influenced Sid to be blonde, and she influenced everyone esle. I don’t know how to describe this feeling,but working at a place where everyone is just like you , it’s really different. Everyone doing stuffs the blonde way, talking the blonde trapping thier hair when closing the door. I LOVE COTTON ON LOT 1.  oh that i mention , COTTON ON  CATALOGUE THIS SEASON IS HOT.

I think its obvious when some one is going through thier mid-life crisis, i mean countless people has expressed thier concern over me. I really appreciate that guys. Thanks for tolerating me whining and rolling on the floor. Hope i didn’t scare my class when i moaned and whine on the floor today .. Rowenna text me this ” HEy WEI XING! however sad you are, YOU STILL HAVE US! we love you!” thanks, i needed that. I WANT TO REVERT TO MY OLD SELF, CAREFREE,LAUGHING BAG .

Today is the second day that i’m staying over at Clementi . Will my brother please stop smoking in our aunt’s house. So fucking stupid for a 21 year old. Doesn’t he know my aunt hates the smell .

My brother and i at clementi

My heart bleeds red.

What a cold day it had been , had my nose running. The mucus around my nose sorta become callus , like hardened around the rim of my nostrils and when i brush them off, they fall like flakes-snowflakes! I took one ‘flake’ toss it into the air, and made a wish .”Oh mucus God, grant me my wish” i said .

Why is it that i have to avoid you when i see you now. I didn’t want or rather didn’t wish to avoid you . But it’s this resilient feeling that repelled me, the thought of what you said that night , such hostility , such menace. . . …

Peiqi has such interesting classmates. 33 year old Burmese guy, i taught them how to say ” have you eaten ” in burmese -”sha pi pi la ” i wished i had a 40 year old bitch in my class thats so milf i know. haha.

Was at board games with the elites til i had to go to Bugis with Wani and Rowenna… slutty Wilson had too much work to tag along!  Dont hit  topman,topshop,dorothy perkins  without my fashion fastforward card!TOPMAN THIS SEASON IS BORRIIINNGGG.

Almost got a 73 bucks top but dropped the idea when bugis street stuck my mind , chucked the top somewhere and went opposite to bugis street, got 2 nice tops at a really good deal . 2 tops anyone would thought came from Zara or Ben Shermans. HAEHAEHEAHAHEheheahEHA.  I got a shoe from everlast , i bought it without even thinking, urgg.  what a bum but whatever Hooorah , pay day’s tomorrow .

No strangers bothered to share an umbrella across a street, how strange! I mean , i sheltered this aunty across a street before , i toook the initiation of course, and i felt good for the whole day, doesn’t anyone wants to feel good no more ?

How would you react if i told you , MICHAEL JACKSON FAKED HIS DEATH , HE FAKED HIS DEATH SO AS TO MAKE HIS COME-BACK DEBUT AND CONCERT A MAJOR SURPRISE.

I think i look good in pale yellow

I need my stylist to help style my new hair. argg

Thanks Team Mewy, if you will ever read this, Got positive comments from patricia, i love y’all for tolerating me for being late everytime!

Wani  and i saw a couple today . Not any ordinary couple, but an elderly couple, and i mean ELDERLY, in thier late 80 perhaps? holding hands, helping each other get on the escalator. My heart melt instantly, how sweet, how beautiful ,Life still has speck of beauty amidst chaotic ruggedness … … Hows that for divorce .

I will be moving to my aunt’s house at Clementi to prevent myself from being late for class. Clementi is so near school thank God for that. And its really near shop and save! yay!

i do not want to avoid you , please help me.

 

PAGEANT UPDATE

Miss Thailand Universe 2009 , Swimsuit photo shoot by Leslie Kee
Courtesy of Ines Ligron

CONCERT

Thanks to Wani Wilson Faizul and Rowenna for screaming my name throughout , it was so loud , i loved the attention though hahaahah! HAAHAHAHAHAHH! Concert was fine, just felt the ushers were poorly dressed and such … …  And i wore the wrong pants for concert. The pants i wore during concert was Fir’s it was the right size, 30 but the wrong cutting for me i guess oh wells, couldn’t fit my old pants anymore . Doesn’t matter, went to monsoon with Joseph, Cindy, Chia pei, Ming Tjun , Jeanette ,Susila to have a hair cut.  Cindy and Chiapei decided too get thier bob while my initial plan for the stylist was to shave off my sides . But he said it would not be nice since my hair was not long enough so i decided to just get layers and under-cuts. I hate my new hair. i Don’t really remember what happened during concert , all i knew was i was screaming, laughing taking photos. Fauzi said the principal knows me as the welfare officer of the band but i have not even met him before, how queer .

i’ve said this countless times, but i have to say this again , Henry’s top is nice.

In the fitting room

im so tired of uploading photos already , hit my facebook.

Anyway , was at town with Hilda today , and im so glad i helped her pick this mexi dress way nicer then the 1 she insisted on buying at Zara which i stopped her . The mexi dress from Isetan cost only 24.90 that 1 at zara cost 119 .
Went to Topman after that , i have to admit, topman this season is boring. Then we went to borders , was trying to get a biography of Amelia vega or Ines Ligron , Oh did i mention , Dan brown’s “The lost symbol” is hitting singapore soon! millions are waiting, make a reservation now all Da vinci code and Angels and demons fans! I chance upon this book ” Strategeist guide to ‘war’ ” How interesting, heres what 1 page says “Life is endless battle and conflict. You cannot fight effectively unless you can identify your enemies. People are subtle and evasive disguising thier intentions pretending to be on your side. You need clarity. Learn to smoke out your enemies to spot them by signs and patterns that reveal hostility. Then once you have them in your sights , inwardly declare war. As the opposite poles of a magnet create motion , your enemies – your opposite can fill you with purpose and direction as people who stand in your way , who represent what you loathe, they are a source of energy. Do not be naive with some enemies there can be no compromise, no middle ground . “ How interesting and true. Immediately after reading that sentence, the image of you saying that while i was closing the welfare cupboard flash through my mind, and i knew right away, theres a fine line between friends and fiends .

pageant & concert

PAGEANT

Miss Thailand 2009 stage training with Miguel

photo courtesy of Ines ligron

Natural boobs i swear.

Another strong candidate for the crown , Vietnam

AND Miss South Africa. She has this sophistication in her and fierceness in her walks just like CARLA BRUNI

CONCERT

Will blog about concert later when pictures are ready.

i heard what you said when i went shouting”who open the w cupboard!”